I can’t find the words to describe how I feel. One day I just feel numb, while other days there are thousands of emotions going through my head. I can’t stop the negative thoughts, and I’m scared that their going to get to me, and that I might do something I will regret again. I don’t want to go through this pain I’ve been trying to deal with anymore. I’m tired of being paranoid, and self conscious every time I see people. I constantly feel as if their judging me, whether it’s because of my appearance, my body, or my past mistakes, people always find a way to put me down, and make me feel like shit. I just care too much about what other people think of me, which is disappointing considering I always disappoint myself. I will never be good enough, and I never will be, for anyone. I will never be like the pretty girls all the guys want to date, and I will never be as smart as my parents want me to be, I will always be a burden to them. I’m just tired. I just want it to end.